This year has definitely been a year of remembering friends AND family that have passed away in recent years. Thinking about them and dreaming about them. In my dreams I am always with all my dead family and friends talking. I keep think "You guys are all dead, why are you here talking to me?" Then I think, enjoy it Robin; take it as a blessing that I can talk with them, even in death.
I am still struggling with my Bipolar Borderline personality disorder and depression. As I get older the health issues I suffer also become more "real" as the pain is more constant now.
I want to be there for people but am going through a withdraw faze. Trying to work it out and not push myself too much.
I have a part time job now and that in itself causes concerns and anxiety. Dealing day to day, moment by moment. Trying to keep ahead of it.
