Stressful situations are harder to deal with when you're "different."

As someone who suffers from depression, I feel different than other people. I tend to look at things differently too. I try to explain to people how it is that I see things, but they don't understand. This article is EXACTLY how I feel!
http://awarenessact.com/15-habits-of-people-with-concealed-depression/?=AA

Made it through the bad day.....

  Yesterday was a bad day for me! As it was the start to a New year 2017 and a Monday to boot.

  Feelings of sadness, depression, feeling weepy and missing my significant other (whom is out of town visiting his parents) IMMENSELY!

  Knowing in my logical mind, why I was feeling this way did not help me emotionally! Some days I KNOW what I should do and can; some days, not so much! Yesterday was one of those days. I had to come home, get in bed and just cover myself up and sleep. I did not even want to see my grandson and I love him SO very much! Sometimes I just need to pull the covers over my head and tell myself "Tomorrow will be  better Robin! Just get through this day!"

  And so it goes another day has started and I made it. Tomorrow may be easy and then it might not be. This is when I need to keep remembering my DBT skills from WAY back when. Breath in and out. In and out....

Moment by moment

  It's December 2016, another year is almost gone. so much had happened. Good, bad and in between stuff.

  This year has definitely been a year of remembering friends AND family that have passed away in recent years. Thinking about them and dreaming about them. In my dreams I am always with all my dead family and friends talking. I keep think "You guys are all dead, why are you here talking to me?" Then I think, enjoy it Robin; take it as a blessing that I can talk with them, even in death.

  I am still struggling with my Bipolar Borderline personality disorder and depression. As I get older the health issues I suffer also become more "real" as the pain is more constant now.

  I want to be there for people but am going through a withdraw faze. Trying to work it out and not push myself too much.

  I have a part time job now and that in itself causes concerns and anxiety. Dealing day to day, moment by moment. Trying to keep ahead of it.

I have been horrible at blogging! I look and see it has been a year since I last posted! Alot has happened in that time!

My eldest child got married and I am a grandma!

I have to say I LOVE IT!! He is a cutie and already 5 months old! Now I know why grand parents brag so much about their grand kids and spoil them,

I have to say all things considered, I am at a point where I can say I have been truly blessed so far in my life. How do I know this? I have had friends who have lost children, children not talking to them, fighting cancer or some sort of handicap in their life!

How do I comfort them, when I feel gulity for secretly being glad it's not me? Is it part of human nature to be thinking that? is it my disorder that makes me think that? I know I have to fight my way through the guilt and tell myself this is a normal feeling.

I love my family and friends and wish NONE of them had to EVER go through any losses or and of this stuff! I know life just throws us curves that we don't want to deal with or want to avoid. I want to understand and help! I try as I still go throught the process of helping myself through my issues!

March 2013 already?

  It's hard to believe it is march 2013 already! I have had SO much going on, it's been hard to stay focused on what I have needed to do and get done.
  I have stayed on the same medication that I have been on and it seems to still be helping me. things have gotten harder as I no longer have a therapist that I go see bi-weekly. this was due in part to the fact that I missed some appointments and just did'nt want to go. For a person with Bi-Polar, it is important to try to keep all appointments and follow through on medications to keep me on track. Some days it is easy to push myself and some days just getting out of bed is a real challenge.

Bipolar Disorder

A.D.A.M. Medical Encyclopedia describes  

Bipolar disorder  as :

Manic depression; Bipolar affective disorder

Bipolar disorder is a condition in which people go back and forth between periods of a very good or irritable mood and depression. The "mood swings" between mania and depression can be very quick.

There is more involved but basically it is "extreme" mood swings! In my case it is due to a chemical imbalance in my body and for me being on the right medications to help me control it!