I have been horrible at blogging! I look and see it has been a year since I last posted! Alot has happened in that time!

My eldest child got married and I am a grandma!

I have to say I LOVE IT!! He is a cutie and already 5 months old! Now I know why grand parents brag so much about their grand kids and spoil them,

I have to say all things considered, I am at a point where I can say I have been truly blessed so far in my life. How do I know this? I have had friends who have lost children, children not talking to them, fighting cancer or some sort of handicap in their life!

How do I comfort them, when I feel gulity for secretly being glad it's not me? Is it part of human nature to be thinking that? is it my disorder that makes me think that? I know I have to fight my way through the guilt and tell myself this is a normal feeling.

I love my family and friends and wish NONE of them had to EVER go through any losses or and of this stuff! I know life just throws us curves that we don't want to deal with or want to avoid. I want to understand and help! I try as I still go throught the process of helping myself through my issues!